Oooohhh...The weather outside!!

There's a quote in Fight Club...If you woke up in a different time in a different place...would you wake up as a different person?

The Tyler Durden inside me shrugs indefinitely and tells me to put a cork in it...."Jesus man...Do ya gotta ask weird quasi-philosophical questions and screw my trip?"....Well funny story...My brain while usually in the state of immobility perks up at all the weirdest times and then 1 stupid question thought about in a state of absolute laziness turns into a "Find answer or go nuts" type situation...

Maybe in a truly sane world..Insanity would be considered a rare virtue...Something possessed only by souls who live in a higher consciousness....

Philosophy is like this pet that kinda improves your mood when you are totally down....But usually causes a mess at the strangest times making ya go "Bad Philosophy...Very Bad Philosophy"...

Now I've kinda been shuttling between 2 different places....One that's characterised by chills and smoke and another that's characterised by Heat and Dust (Merchant/Ivory,Take a bow :P )...And this Fight club funda kinda applies to me..Maybe it's the weather or maybe it's the fact that i live different lives in these 2 places which is why I feel like a different person now.

This whole feeling of Jet-lag doesn't apply to time only but involves the space part of the continuum too....Of course the thought of suffering from Jet Lag coz ya travelled just 300 miles is as stupid as a lot of ideas.

Right now though, I don't give a rat's ass about any such ideas....All I'd like to do is walk in to one of my regular haunts, listen to something that doesn't give me a headache and well...indulge in some meaningless conversation :D

And yeah,Merry Christmas(Belated) to whoever's reading this...Hope ya get whatever ya wish for :D

Phhhhhrrrrbbbbbtttttt!

The title of my post is a reaction to all that's annoying about the world around us :D....Popularized by Rowan Atkinson (Mr Bean to those who don't know this comic genius) It's an expression to which I've kinda developed an addiction lately.

Think of this bad dream that you saw today morning....Imagine it takes a human form and cultivates this habit of annoying ya throughout your day....I'd see it as the annoying dude who stands behind ya and goes "Hiya Pal" with an extremely nasal voice making you want to punch him in the face. The trouble with seeing a bad dream is that it just adds to the "Questions without Answers" part of your brain.

More annoying than bad dreams are the weird ones. You know the ones that involve break-dancing hippos and people who you'd least expect to see popping up in a cinematic representation of your sub-conscious. They are the kind of dreams that make ya walk around the whole day with your face shaped like a question mark and make you wish you had a copy of that book on dreams written by Freud.

Something as Phrrbbttt inducing as the examples cited above are Bad News. You know the kind. Especially news that are not as bad as they are embarrassing and annoying. And if ya gotta smile through the whole ordeal...Maybe that's why all those dudes end up snapping, goin apeshit and grabbing a gun and turning folks into artistic impressions of Swiss Cheese.

Fantasies are fun....Reality, Not so much....;)

Annoying superiors....The "I do not command respect coz I'm a world class schmuck...But i do demand it because I'm insecure as hell and need to reaffirm the fact that I am superior to some really unlucky fucks". Seen this class of people loads of times. Makes ya wanna stick your tongue out and go Phrrrbbbbtttt so vigorously that they blow off....But for some reason these are the kind of guys who end up on top and unfortunately for us, do not allow us to forget that fact.

Bad Movies...Especially if they've been hyped as the greatest movie since Sliced Bread....These are the kind of movie which the extremely hyper dude on one side of you will be laughing his ass off at because it is sooooooooooooo funny........NOT and some annoying screechy gal on the other side of you will be squealing in excitement because the hero is oh sooooooooooo cute and sweet!!!!!! These kind of movies usually star the flavor of the season who for some reason thinks that his/her presence is enough to make the movie a hit....Funnily it works at all the wrong times...

Server slowdowns on any social networking site.......Page looks like it's about to load.....Server Not Found!......Refresh Button pressed gently.....Page loads halfway and then gives up due to lack of motivation....Refresh Button pressed a little less gently....Page loads in the same amount of time I could've taken a tour of the Universe......In the meantime....Refresh Button pressed with the same feeling with which one punches the daylights of an enemy.....Page finally loads fully....Nobody's commented on my oh so freakingly cool status update......Or on my "Look at me I'm so hot" pics....Life Stinks!

Flight Delays.....Annoying voice on P.A System "This is to inform you with some regret(Yeah right!) that Flight Number $@#! to *insert destination here* has been delayed due to Technical Difficulties (Oh yeah,never heard that before)......Sit on extremely uncomfortable seat in the middle of the "Swanky yet Accessible" lounge......Try making eye contact with extremely attractive lady in front of you *crashes and burns*......Bah! Women!.....Walks around airport lounge till security starts giving ya weird looks....Makes calls to friends who are all not in the mood to talk....Bwah!!!! I'll go fly the damn plane myself....3-4 agonizing hours later....Annoying voice on P.A System "Boarding's been announced"....Say,that voice ain't too bad ehh.....Enters plane beaming hoping to be seated next to remotely attractive woman.....Ends up sitting next to extremely annoying middle aged corporate honcho who has a lot of gyaan to share...but not his cash :P.......Honcho flirts with gorgeous air-hostess...She responds.....Bah!!!

More to come soon....Maybe someday when I'm actually pissed off :P

Is It Just Me....

...or is it not me :P

E-mails...Messages...Tweets...Updates...Text...Words...Letters.....?

Not exactly trying to convey something here....More like something off the top of my head or possibly through the back of it :P

Ahh need a walk badly...Need a long walk to think about nothing at all...

Telangana...A new state comes up....So what i wonder??

Another status update comes up saying something or the other....Cool :)

Mobile buzzes with activity....Something interesting i guess...

Gaze shifting to pile of DVDs....Yes Minister or Rock On....Or maybe Crank 2:High Voltage....Spoilt for choices here..But not a clue about what to watch...

India lost yesterday....From Numero Uno to this...Weird people :P

Terrible Dinner last night...Hopefully tonight should make up for it....Money for nothing can piss people off...

1 week since CAT....Wonder what's the state of my exam :P

SNAP coming up....May do well...May not...Should see...

Right! Kaltofy now :P Update somethin' later maybe

It's Like.......

It's like........

That's how i usually go when asked to describe something that's beyond description. Right now I alternate between the states of sleepy annoyance and sleepy cheer :P...Elvis belts out Blue Suede Shoes...I rock back and forth in my chair and wonder why the hell I like this song so much :D.......Just got back from a trip to Bangalore where I pretty much bet my future on the whims and fancies of a random computer.....The roulette wheel spins, but i don't see a number yet....Guess I'm still in the game for now.

The mind vacillates from one mood to another, one fantasy to another....But certain things stay the same.

Food!!!!.....One of my favorite topics of conversation. And truly one of the greatest pleasures of life ;)...To experience and to indulge in...

Movies!!!!......Again a favorite topic...Whether you are able to escape from reality and settle down in a different world,say The Shire from Lord Of The Rings or even the darkest recesses of someone's mind or a loving joint family in an ideal world...Movie watching has always been a true pleasure. Especially if the story's so good that it gets you involved.

Books!!!!!.... They say a picture speaks a thousand words.....But sometimes a thousand words can trigger off a million emotions...It can inspire...It can sadden...It can amuse...It can even educate...But make no mistake, Reading is one of the greatest cerebral pleasures one can ever enjoy without feeling any guilt :D

Writing!!!!... Now I agree I'm not a regular blogger. Just a regular guy who comes up here and writes irregular stuff. But I do agree with the title of my blog because I usually write about the here and now. Sure it's about me...But then,if i wanna read random opinions about something i don't care about resulting in either amusement or simple indifference, The World Wide Web's got enough shit out there to read till the world ends.

The advantage of being random is it makes conversations fun. At least for me it does. Where's the fun in rambling on and on about some topic no matter how inflammatory it is if ya ain't gettin' anywhere? Makes sense right? Yeah well what can we do? No matter how unpleasant our voice may sound to others, to us it is THE most intoxicating sound ever :D....

No idea behind this post. No plan to fit in with the greater scheme of things. Just some words pushed around here and there to form a small stream of coherence or incoherence...Depends on how ya see it ;)

Fake Smiles and Covered Miles!!

Bah!!! Grr!! etc etc.....

I gotta ask.....Why is it that nothing is ever what we think it is? Take a beautiful painting that's been around for sometime. From a distance, It looks beautiful. It looks perfect. You can't seem to find any fault with it. But the minute you get up close and personal, You see the cracks. The glitches. They may be negligent. They may be subtle. But sometimes they are obvious,even painfully so. And that gets you thinking. It changes your perspective about the painting. The question is, Are you able to accept it in spite of all the glitches or do you just move on the another painting that's more "perfect"?

I see it everywhere. I see it in myself too. This tendency of the human spirit,not to break under the most trying circumstances. The cracks under the facade of perfection that we try to portray to anybody who's looking. Now, any damage is reparable to a certain degree. It can be glued together and made to look as good as new through the glue of emotion or practicality. Sometimes you let the cracks that begin to appear in your life get fixed through love and acceptance or through a pretense of conformity. But after a while, as the damage turns irreparable, Are you still able to accept it? Can you look past the damage and see the bigger picture? Or do you move on to something less complicated but with lesser meaning too?

I'm still walking down this road as I hate driving :D....I hitch a ride occasionally to get me through certain bad roads. But mostly, It's just me and my trusty old legs that refuse to give up and want to keep walking :D....What about you,Yes you,the one that's reading this....Have you stopped for good or do you plan to stay on the road and show the finger to failure that creeps up on you in the form of anger, exhaustion, cynicism and hopelessness???

Think about it ;)...You've got all the time in the world :D

Overwhelmed!

Why is it that the brain which can handle any amount of useless information starts acting up the moment it starts taking emotions in? It's like,No matter how much you read and remember,It doesn't matter. But if You are handling a number of situations, all of a sudden, You are feeling overwhelmed and unable to handle it. It's almost as if, the brain has decided to mix up these emotions rather than looking at them objectively and your insides ended up feeling like they've been tossed into a blender.

I try my usual technique, Resigned Indifference. Doesn't work. Now I'm at a loss. Trouble is, I can't talk. I mean I can talk about it, but to whom? It's all so weird. It's like the tale can't be told yet. Premature, yet with a punch! So, as of now,Taking a few deep breaths, Gritting my teeth and dealing with it.

Like Bob Dylan once said "People are crazy, Times are strange, I'm Locked in tight, I'm out of range, I used to care, But things have changed".

Kwazy!

Doing Good!

Is it completely possible to eradicate that slight bit of selfishness behind even the noblest of deeds? Just asking ;)

Longevity!

What's the difference between an idea and a great idea?

Longevity!

What's the point of having an Idea, no matter how earth shattering it may be if it doesn't last the initial euphoria?

Ummm......

Warning: Extremely Personal and Self-referential(Yeah yeah,been there done that)

Like always...Every post containing words is preceded by a million blank ones....Every decent idea i get is only after the rejection of a million bad ones....

Lately, I've been trying this new thing where I try to be not just a better person, But also a more secure person :).....

The past few weeks have literally been cathartic in nature as I've tried to kill all the bad in me...Now I know that a person cannot be a 100% good or a 100% evil. The problem with value education is that we are taught to view everything in black or white. But there lies the trouble! How does one react to Grey?????? This is a question that has troubled me a LOT!!!

One of the greatest flaws in my character is that I try to simplify everything i see..Now Science basically boils down to the simplest explanation, But what about Art? Can Art be explained in just a word or a sentence? Why I ask this is because Life to me is more Art than Science? Birth and Death may be scientific, But what about the time in between?

Coming back to the flaw in my character...I can be accused of viewing Life through that highly simplified perspective which has led to me committing many fatal flaws which in a way has led to me losing a few battles.

But there is one extremely valuable lesson I've learned recently. The person who is most uncomfortable with himself is the one who can cause maximum destruction in order to feel that minimum sense of adequacy....The most angry person is the one who has been denied the one thing we always crave for...Acceptance. Thinking about it, It's extremely saddening to watch. The smartest, The best looking, The most talented, Yet never happy with what they are. Always craving to be someone else.

Ultimately It's how you look to yourself, Not to the rest of the world right????

I've learned this..But will I be able to follow it? Can I walk the walk? Only Time Will Tell...Till then, I can only pray for following the right path :)

Not Yet Back In The Game,But Getting There!

Yeah,Like the title suggests,Am not yet back to my blogging finesse....But the way life's going lately, It's gonna be back soon. Anyways,reason for this post is a couple of weird thoughts I had today....

Flash Of Brilliance 1: I don't think you should tell a friend "I'm always gonna be around"....You are around for your friend only when you are around...Go figure :D

Flash Of Brilliance 2: You live in a place long enough, You end up becoming like that place....For example...You live in Mangalore long enough...You become like the place....Laid-back,Relaxed....And worst-case scenario....BORING!!!!!! But say you live in a big city say Mumbai or New York, You reflect the pace of the city...Your personality is dynamic,exciting and I'd say Addictive too...

Wonder what the others (referring to my friends and the loyal readers :P of this blog) have to say about this.....

Back Again!

Like a long lost friend,I return to my blog who stands waiting for me,steadfast and never wavering(Yawn!!! already reading that overwrought piece of prose).......

Since my last post,been coming to terms with the fact that a rather long chapter of my Life that I've been used to since 3 years is now coming to a close. The only thing that has sort of kept me going through these days is the constant flow of beer :D, It's been like every other day we have a faux farewell party only to meet again the next day. However this is gonna end real soon....

Now as this chapter comes to a close, We'll notice that most folks will go their own way. One shall return to his hometown to an uncertain future, One will stick around wondering what the hell to do with his life, The one who has it all figured out will just move on the next level with quite some ease :)...... And of course, Some of the gals i know, They've already started making wedding plans(Just let me know when you are deciding the lunch and dinner menus).....

Now I myself am sticking around because I'm being lured by 2 lucrative careers, even though my heart's set on a 3rd one ;) But i know that I'm gonna end up somewhere sooner or later, So am not too concerned.

The only issue that's bothering me right now is the long period of solitude coming up in the coming months...And solitude isn't exactly my best friend ;)

Time to start Living i guess, Let's see where life's gonna take me next :D

Lookin' Back!

Well!!!!

As I reach the end of a rather interesting,twist filled,intriguing(and various other adjectives you'll probably find at the back of some random novel) chapter of my short life, Methinks it's time to start a little "looking back over my shoulders" session but nothing too long and boring( like stories i normally find funny :P )..

It's been a fun ride, These 3 years, have had my shares of ups and downs,loads of downs,but quite a few ups to make up for it....

Ups like winning some major quizzes, making some great friendships, learning a lot of crazy new stuff and certain practical lessons too...

Downs like misunderstandings, politics, fights, fuck-ups etc etc....

But some of the stuff I learnt in here were

* Life goes on, You ain't indispensable
* The really smart guy is the one who knows when to shut the fuck up
* Nothing's ever worth losing sleep over, If ya can't solve something, Just chill,It'll sort itself out :)
* The only memories You'll eventually have left are the good ones :D
* Booze rules, But just don't overdo it :)
* When it comes to Gals, Totally different playing field, Totally different rules ;)

That's all, No more gyaan, No more bullshit, Just me racing towards the climax of an exciting chapter in my life :)

Uh Oh!!!

Scarily Close to the edge!!! Looks like I'm gonna fall off any minute now.....